It’s raining men!

•January 29, 2008 • 7 Comments

Hallelujah! After 8 months of imagining that I’ll never be interested in men again I have turned a corner, and it feels good to be back to my normal (if slightly mad) self. Apparently there’s lots of fish in the sea, my problem is my sea is not very big so I turned to the super-sized sea and had a go at internet dating. I joined up to 2 separate websites and am quietly chuffed that I had such a good response, it’s just a matter of weeding out the numptys now – and so far I have only met one pervert! The unusual thing is the two people who have so far been normal enough to get my phone number are both police officers – I’m starting to think that maybe I have a thing about uniforms…

And I don’t know whether it’s the sunshine we’ve been having but once again I find myself randomly smiling and being generally more friendly to people. Even when I’m not at work. I had a random hug from a paramedic the other day that made me especially cheerful, there are certain people in the ambulance service (ok, most of them) who aren’t really “huggy” people. While having a chat with this particular person (who I had down as a very non huggy type) I mentioned it’s been about 6 months since anyone hugged me – then to my surprise I got a big hug! I think they should be available free on the NHS because they definitely do make you feel better. Seriously, go try it – it’s good and it’s free!

Work’s good generally, I now have a proper, real, permanent crewmate. I’ve been working with him for about 7 months now and have no idea how he puts up with me (he’s not *quite* as lively as I am) but he does and now he’s stuck with me until such times as I do my paramedic training or he goes somewhere else. I like him because he’s happy to teach me, one day I had a question about an ECG relating to heart block – the next day he brought in a book and talked me through it! The only rule we have is that I don’t sing in the ambulance… too much…

On the subject of singing I have an audition this weekend, although I’m well aware that the competition is going to be fierce I’m quietly confident that I could be in with a bit of a chance – in my opinion the part could have been written for me!

And lastly can you all keep your fingers crossed for my aunty Bren, we find out tomorrow if they managed to make her cancer disappear. The whole family’s out tomorrow night for what is hopefully going to be a huge celebration.

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Yay me!

•January 23, 2008 • 3 Comments

Well, I do believe I’ve made it to day 16 without a cigarette. This is an achievement I’m proud of but I’m not getting over ambitious as the urge to run out and “just buy 10 and then that’s it, never again, promise…” is still very much there. At the moment will power is winning though.

2008 hasn’t started the way I’d planned, infact there are certain complications which I would have never planned for in a million years. I won’t bore you with details but huge thanks to Merys and my ex (the fabulous Mr Reynolds) who have both been assisting me with my issues! While I work through these things posting will be sporadic – there really is nothing happening in my life, I will of course let you know if I find a new man, if I fall off the smoking wagon and if anything exciting or interesting happens.

See ya soon xx

Reward time for Laura

•January 13, 2008 • 4 Comments

So, I woke up to a beautiful, spring like morning… rolled over and got up eventually to a beautiful, spring like early afternoon. I then hauled myself out of bed and just about managed to get dressed, whoever said non-smokers have more energy was lying! I jumped on the DLR and travelled the 5 minutes to canary wharf intent on getting my nails to look fabulous with the help of a qualified nail technician and some stick on bits. However, when I arrived there was a giant queue, the lady said “pop back in an hour and we may have space” so I went browsing…

The mistake really was to go into HMV, as a rule if I have money I spend it on CDs,  DVDs or books… HMV has a large selection of CDs and DVDs and they have a sale on AND I had cash in my pocket so it wasn’t really a question of if I was going to spend my money but more what was it to be spent on. There was a fabulous Rocky Horror box set which I didn’t get as I couldn’t really justify having 4 different DVDs of it! Then there’s the Simpsons Movie, Shrek 3, Shaun of the Dead and Hot Fuzz which are all waiting to get into my collection, but then I was pulled to the TV boxsets, and there among the other stuff was the last box set of Doctor Who series 2 (you may remember I got series 3 for Christmas) How could I say no and leave the Doctor and Rose sat there on their own?

While making my way to the tills I had to walk past the sale CD’s and there among the 2 for £10 or £7 each was Take That’s new album… so obviously that had to be done….

The sad discovery was that of the CD there’s a couple of really beautiful songs that made me cry – I think giving up smoking has made me weak! So I was delighted to see that Shaun of the Dead was on TV, I’ve just finished watching that and now I’m snuggling up with the Doctor, not quite the manicure I was expecting but it will certainly last longer. I just have to keep off the cigarettes for a while longer now – the list of “rewards” for me grows longer by the day!

And a little video for you today too – it makes me laugh and the song has some nice memories attached for me too! (The clip does have a couple of swear words so be careful who’s listening)

Craving

•January 12, 2008 • 5 Comments

Well, my first attempt at quitting smoking failed miserably. I lasted a grand total of 12 hours (16 if you include sleeping time) before I started again, then I had an epiphany… I don’t actually like the smell of smoke on my clothes, I’m saving up to buy a house and the money would be handy and my pulse and blood pressure weren’t great for someone my age. So a new plan was formulated, quietly I headed to my local superstore and discovered that they had a special offer on nicotine replacement patches – £10 for a week’s supply – bargain, while I was there I stocked up on sugar free sweets and fruit and salad stuff – I have no intention of gaining weight. As I write this I’m about to go into day 5 without cigarettes.

I was hoping that it would start getting easier by now but it’s actually getting worse. But the patches and my sudden interest in healthy living (I haven’t had any chips or chocolate in those 5 days either – I just prefer salad at the moment) are making it easier. And even though it’s only been 5 days the positive effects are already kicking in, my pulse rate has now gone back within expected limits, it’s 68 at the moment and my blood pressure has started to shift back to the low side of good. I also ran up 3 flights of stairs with all our kit today, just to see if I could, and although I was slightly out of breath I could still talk and recovered in super quick time. Who knows – I may even buy some new trainers and start running again!

Now I’m off to bed so I’m ready for my treat tomorrow – with the money I would have spent on cigarettes I’m having a manicure!

Resolution

•January 3, 2008 • 5 Comments

Happy New Year everyone x

So, 2008… I wonder how long it will take for me to stop writing 2007 on my paperwork… I don’t know about you guys but I have issues with new years resolutions – if you want to stop something / do something why wait until January? This year however I have made a resolution. As you know when I split with my ex I was smoking vast quantities of cigarettes again within minutes, then I slowed down and up until yesterday was back on about 20 a day. However, today I had 2. And this is cold turkey, I have no patches, fake cigarettes, tablets, injections, lozenges etc… just me, my will power and some cherry tomatoes. Hopefully by this time tomorrow I will have smoked the grand total of 0 cigarettes. Have pity on my crewmate because I’m back at work tomorrow too and he sees me more than anyone else and so I will be putting his good nature to the test. Fortunately he doesn’t smoke so that should make it easier for me and if the snow we’ve been promised arrives I’m going to be even less likely to want to turn out in the cold to smoke.

I met an 88 year old lady the other day who had smoked since she was 14… she stopped 4 years ago… now there’s some motivation for me! Plus the money I’ll be saving (over £2000 a year) will come in handy, I’m due to have my first holiday in six years this year, I think I’m going to Turkey with my Aunty Brenda and her children but she’s organising everything – I just have to get a passport!

So wish me luck, this could be an interesting couple of weeks!

Happy New Year!

•December 31, 2007 • 4 Comments

The following message has been pre-written. By the time this posts (if everything goes as planned) I should be safely under the influence of vast quantities of alcohol! Just wanted to take the oppertunity to thank you for your continued attention and support and wish you all a happy and healthy new year.

Big new year kisses for you all xxxx

lions and time lords and bears – oh my!

•December 28, 2007 • 1 Comment

Well, there we have it. Christmas over and done with for another 12 months. I must have been good this year because Santa got me nice stuff, my crewmate will be pleased that included in my gifts was a large quantity of stuff to make me smell lovely! I am pleased that my Mum (as well as getting me nice prezzies including the new Harry Potter film) gave me money, when I told her how it would be spent she was unsurprised because she had looked at getting it for me anyway. She received an excited phone call tonight to let her know that in my sweaty palms I had my own personal Series 3 box set of Doctor Who… she was not as excited as I was… infact I could visualise her rolling her eyes down the phone at me.

A happy discovery in the Doctor Who department was a rumour that Rose will be back for a bit in series 4, this makes me incredibly happy, I’d like to see him reunited with her, I don’t like it when he’s a sad Doctor….

And now I, like Rose, await the coming of the man who will sweep us off our feet… And so I leave you with a question -where have all the good men gone? (and a lovely video)